{ sense of achievement }

Today is our graduation. I am not feeling alright.


My family are all here for me, all the way from Malaysia with total of 12 hours of wait in the terminal. Idiot me, why should not I appreciate them. Why should I care so much about people who do not appreciate me at all?


I can't feel any sense of achievement and fulfillment.

"Thank you tiffany! thank you so much for doing such a nice and wonderful degree project!" So firm on shaking my hand, the sincerity that was so true. I don't really know why does he need to thank me. I could not really think at that moment. I tried so hard to be proud of what I did but I could not help anymore, by breaking down and cried. (*You know, when you are alone and about to cry, but holding there, and someone turns up and walk to you, hold your hands and concern about you, that kind of feeling.) Really, I didnt mean to look bad or try to grab attention. It was very ugly on me i know.

He said: "Are you alright?" I said yes I am, yea, I dont look like. I tried to say something else, "You are a good actor" (featured in a video). Guess what respond i got? "THIS IS WHAT WE NEED TO DO" he replied. Again, it was touching my heart. By the time I met some people that made me realise the ugliness of human. Complexity of emotion, disappointment of false hope from people on the happy and honoured graduation day for my family and myself. What should i do?

Here, I went to the after party, He said: "it's too bad, your friends are judging you too hard. Everyone is looking so good. He told me that I should be enjoying my graduation. I should be damn happy, and what i need to do is to bring my family to a good dinner. Thank you for talking to me like a friend. You know I won't forget about this short (not really) but true conversation, that allowed me to open up my heart, at the time that i really need someone to talk to.
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thank you Mr. Simon Laing and Mr. Rick.
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on the way to OYPC

airplane lunch/dinner. having fever.


airplane landed safely on the Sydney Airport. Today, I did something that my mom thought it was brave. Going to a foreign country for the first time by myself, holding some phone numbers that i could contact, but not a big deal after all.

classic elevator and china town
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how could i forget these days
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so calm

I was alone by myself in the school at night, was not facing the computer screen, I was drawing my own world on an A3 paper, with pencil, i felt so calm, so good, I never realized this can be so good when I am drawing. I do agree if people say that i am too imaginative, yet, it doesn't mean that I am dreaming, and I still living in reality. It is not a bad thing for being yourself isn't it?
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Do your friends love you for who your are?
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{ wellington.2nd visit }

Easter Weekend. We got ourselves in Wellington, with 3 cars. 10 of us.


Xbase - the back packers place. Good one. New and clean and it just cost us 23dollars a night for a room of four.
[right]: view from our room.


[left]: path towards the peak of Mount Victoria.
[right]: view from the Mount Victoria


[left]: The Parlimen like a bee hive.


On the way back to Wanganui. The best part was the way back home, sea at the left side, mountains at the right side.
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Khap Khun Kaa. Te pa ma Wellington
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{ for my buddy }

I took this picture by chance, when I was looking at it, I knew this is something meant for you on this day. You know who you are.

I don't know what is the thing that is holding this "buddyship" between us, not so close yet so close? Everyone has someone in life that you know who you can count on whenever you need someone, especially when you have no clue of what to do, upset in life, still you will tell this person everything honestly. I am thankful that I have such a friend like this.

Happy Birthday is something too cliche to say to you because you know sometimes, something could be just understood without saying anything. This might not be your best birthday present ever, hopefully you get how sincere am I, to this "buddyship".
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appreciated
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