i flipped. i flapped

It has been a tough time. I am living my daily life. I realized things don't go right.

I refuse to grow stronger inside, while I am physically training myself to. How pathetic that is to know that.

People always say "I will do this...", "I will do that...". Look how you behave when you face real difficulties. I don't know how to cope with constant disappointment anymore, but I can't quit or take a break of my life, I have to move on, at least I am moving on... regardless of a clear direction or on the right track.
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does miracle exist?
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